Post by Sharess on May 20, 2004 11:07:59 GMT -5
You ever get that feeling that in a past life you must have been the most evil and vile person ever, and know your having to pay for it?
Ok before you read anymore I have to warn you that this does invole some ok lots of whining. So if you don't want to read it then stop now or keep reading if you really want to but you have been warned.
Back to the topic at hand. I swear I must have been the most evil and vile person in a past life. I think I was Count Dracu ( the turk who impladed all his enemys) Cortes (the Spanish guy who pretty much wiped out the Astexz (sp?)), and Hilter. I'm not kidding here I turely thing that I was a evil and vile person in many if not all of my past lives. But know I'm A good person getting all this crap thrown at meand it seems to all be happening to me this year.
In January I found out I was pregant (yeah a good thing) by the end of January I had a almost lieful miscarage. Two weeks latter my Nana dies, and my mom goes nuts (she had a a mental breack down)
Febuary my neice gets phemoania and dies from that. My mom and dad sprate or as they put it take a breack form their wedding vows and start to see other people. (ok that wasn't a bad thing but a blessing all they did was fight so thank goodness they tryed to get the speration thing)
Late March or early April I found out I have ovartenain canser. Ok start the stinking treatments and they get screwed up not once but twice and get sick as a dog no wait I get sicker then a dog. I ended up spending three days in the hosptal do to the gross incomasecse of the stupid nurse (yes lets put the dang drugs on the fastest drip possiple, nah she won't get sick and the next time oh lets give her the wrong drugs nah, she won't have a violet reaction to them.) A week latter geuss what they find two more tumors and there both cancer and ythey can't oprate on them. So for a week I'm thinking the worst and start to get stuff ready for the my death. Got the coffin and the will all made up and had to go through all my stuff (which by the way I got a lot of stuff, never thought I had that much stuff) Now I get some good news their willing to try cryo-sugrey on the tumors on the orvery and on the spine. I'm fine with this and it goes really well there both frozened and have been reorbied by the body. Oh but wait what about the thrid tumore you say well that one is in the brain and its at grade four (yup not good at all) and I've been given a 5% survail chance so now I'm going through more stinking cemo and even worse radation. I'm not what they call a happy camper right now. I've been nothing but hopeful so far but right now I feel like kama is now giving me the "spanking of a life time". I try to think positively and tell every one that I'll be fine and beat this thing but I really don't think I will any more. Plus I'm soooooooo sick and tired of being sick and tired. About the only thing I'm greatful for is the fact I have not lost my hair its only gotten a little thinner, hey I would make a very scarey bald chick trust me on this.
So right now I'm wondering whats the bloody piont of fighting this any more. And why is this happening to me why not some mass muder who really deserivce this and that kama must really be be thinking I was a evil person so now I must pay but hey lets hit her all at once and see if she cracks. Sorry if this upsets any one.
Ok before you read anymore I have to warn you that this does invole some ok lots of whining. So if you don't want to read it then stop now or keep reading if you really want to but you have been warned.
Back to the topic at hand. I swear I must have been the most evil and vile person in a past life. I think I was Count Dracu ( the turk who impladed all his enemys) Cortes (the Spanish guy who pretty much wiped out the Astexz (sp?)), and Hilter. I'm not kidding here I turely thing that I was a evil and vile person in many if not all of my past lives. But know I'm A good person getting all this crap thrown at meand it seems to all be happening to me this year.
In January I found out I was pregant (yeah a good thing) by the end of January I had a almost lieful miscarage. Two weeks latter my Nana dies, and my mom goes nuts (she had a a mental breack down)
Febuary my neice gets phemoania and dies from that. My mom and dad sprate or as they put it take a breack form their wedding vows and start to see other people. (ok that wasn't a bad thing but a blessing all they did was fight so thank goodness they tryed to get the speration thing)
Late March or early April I found out I have ovartenain canser. Ok start the stinking treatments and they get screwed up not once but twice and get sick as a dog no wait I get sicker then a dog. I ended up spending three days in the hosptal do to the gross incomasecse of the stupid nurse (yes lets put the dang drugs on the fastest drip possiple, nah she won't get sick and the next time oh lets give her the wrong drugs nah, she won't have a violet reaction to them.) A week latter geuss what they find two more tumors and there both cancer and ythey can't oprate on them. So for a week I'm thinking the worst and start to get stuff ready for the my death. Got the coffin and the will all made up and had to go through all my stuff (which by the way I got a lot of stuff, never thought I had that much stuff) Now I get some good news their willing to try cryo-sugrey on the tumors on the orvery and on the spine. I'm fine with this and it goes really well there both frozened and have been reorbied by the body. Oh but wait what about the thrid tumore you say well that one is in the brain and its at grade four (yup not good at all) and I've been given a 5% survail chance so now I'm going through more stinking cemo and even worse radation. I'm not what they call a happy camper right now. I've been nothing but hopeful so far but right now I feel like kama is now giving me the "spanking of a life time". I try to think positively and tell every one that I'll be fine and beat this thing but I really don't think I will any more. Plus I'm soooooooo sick and tired of being sick and tired. About the only thing I'm greatful for is the fact I have not lost my hair its only gotten a little thinner, hey I would make a very scarey bald chick trust me on this.
So right now I'm wondering whats the bloody piont of fighting this any more. And why is this happening to me why not some mass muder who really deserivce this and that kama must really be be thinking I was a evil person so now I must pay but hey lets hit her all at once and see if she cracks. Sorry if this upsets any one.