An Epiphany

[Chahiero]

The other night I had a rare moment of religious insight and ended pouring my thoughts into my journal I thought some of you may be interested in seeing this, so I'm posting it here :-)

There is a god - but he is not a god in the cristian sense. He is no loving omnipotent being that cares for us all - he is simply the beginning point, he created the universe and set in motion those systems that are neccesary for it's existence. He also has his opposite, the Satan, the destroyer and the end. This duality is neccesary, for all things have a beginnning and an end. What God creates, in the end Satan must destroy. And what Satan destroys, God creates over again. That is the cycle of destruction and recreation, from things as small as blades of grass to things as big as the universe. Science tells us that the universe has had numerous "big bangs" - and thats simply whats at work - Satan eventually destroys all, but God brings it back.

There is no such thing as an absolute evil or an absolute good. These things are artificial contructs of a human mind desperately trying to anchor itself in a world that is inherently unfair and uncaring. We as humans long for a world that is caring, and yet our world is not. Yet there are the forces of light and those of darkness. They are very real. Ive seen angels, Id like to think that I have at least one watching upon me. Ive also seen the effects of possession, its not a pretty thing. To see a mind torn shattered and torn between the light and the dark is not an easy thing for anyone to bear, especially not one as sensitive to the suffering of others as I am.

Thats where these two thoughts tie together, the karmic war between good and evil has waged for aeons, spanning the ages of many universes. What we see in our lifetime is but a small glimpse into that eternal conflict. The problem with me is I see a lot of what happens in the future and in the past. Call me crazy, but I do - just ask Lynn about the time I saw her cutting in one of my dreams. I see this fight going on every night in my daily nightmares - I see the eternal duality of the good and the bad, I see all the bad that happens and all the good. I have to say, I see more bad than good ... and that's forever wounded my belief in any sort of karma which balances out in the end - perhaps it will, but not within my lifetime.

Some would say I am a very gifted person, to have the insights I am given into this ... and yet, I cannot help but feel, after knowing it all, that ignorance is bliss

I'd appreciate any thoughts.

[nonameapparent]

So youre saying you are a clairvoyant?

Anyway I am not religious, have never been, and I have come to the revelation that even if there were an god(allah, jahve, vishnu whatever you want to call it) I wouldn`t worship it. Because in the end what has it ever done for me and to worship something just because its a god is just idiotic. I guess I dont like the idea of worship or praying, even if I have done it and probably will do it again. Ironicly I have come to think that the only thing you can do is believe and the idea of knowing something for certain is naive.
I`d like to keep an open mind, so I am not saying that god doesn`t exist or that the big bang theory is wrong, how can I?
They are possibilities, just like "we are all aliens from outer space" is and not neccessarily as stupid as it sounds. The world is an interpertation of how we see it, who knows it might different, perhaps Lovecraft was right. So yeah ignorance is bliss, but inspite of that if I were to choose between the "truth" and ignorance,
I would choose truth, with the realization that it probably would be proven wrong later.

[Hussar]

Ok, not to be mean or anything, but, there's a number of flaws in these thoughts.

A. The idea that there have been numerous big bangs. This is not even a theory in science. Simply conjecture for SF writers. No serious student of science gives much credit to this since it is completely unprovable. Anything which is unprovable is no longer science, but the realm of faith. It's cool to believe in it, but not cool to try to pass it off as anything other than conjecture.

B. Your interpretation of Satan is wildly different from any theological definition. In addition, why is destruction automatically evil? Creation always requires destruction. Every birth begins in pain and blood. Destruction is neither evil nor the opposite of creation.

C. Mixing religions is something of a no-no. The idea of karmic resonance has absolutely nothing to do with a concept of God. In actuallity, if there is a God, then Karma cannot exist. To say that there must be balance is to put limitations on God, which, by definition, has no limitations.

An interesting thought experiment to be sure, but, requiring a little more background into what you are trying to articulate.

[LadyWinterWolf]

I have a problem with "eclectic" religious beliefs, taking the best or worst parts of various sects, putting it together and saying "wallah, I believe in this", and it's a hodgepodge of disjointed thinking.

You don't believe in a god of the christian sense, yet use the term God for your creator, and Satan (a christian creation) for your destructor.........sorry, this is christian thinking.

Karmic war? Karmic balance? What are you talking about? Karma is the judgement that will be placed upon you in your next life. It doesn't determine war or balance between good and evil.

Ignorance is bliss.......ok, not to be mean or insulting, but you must be feeling pretty blissful right now. Pete, ya know I like you, but your writings here are not thoughtout. They're more a desparate attempt to make sense of a confusion that you want out of your life, and you're grabbing at straws to solve it.

Ya know I'm around, available, to listen to you....keep safe hun.